You hold me in your arms when the darkness tries to consume me
Bringing back the light you promised I would once again see

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You seem to be the source of my existence
But when it come to being with you, there’s always this resistance

~ hmm.... it's been quite a long time since i last wrote a poem

Swindled by love that hates
Hidden by shadowing clouds
Inconspicuously awaits our fate
Confusion and fury expressed out loud
The calming after a stormy rain shall await

The more I take, the more I leave behind
These footsteps lead to the past
To which I wish I’m blind
I can’t hid from the shadows that I cast
My light has left me, bid me not to see
The lights of others that near me
It combines to conceal me

I trace fingers over these word
Trying to ease it so never again will it be heard
Bared feet on the ground
Shattered glass that surrounds
I try to move but can not pass for that I am bound
Cursed by words that others say
Damned by doings that follow everyday
What can I say, what can I do
Everything is said and done

You can’t see pass the mist that fogs my mind.
But yet, I still get confused, searching for explanations that I can’t find.
Or is it just that I don’t understand myself.
I wish you can decipher me,
Know me more then I know myself.
So if I can’t explain things to u you can explain it back to me.

Be there to help me through it all,
Don’t just watch, but catch me when I fall.

in time to say, will wishes come through.

If I’ve made a wrong, will time stand still,

in my head, my mind has fallen ill.

If to say that one will never cry,

then truly that really is a lie.

I can't see what that is mine.

Insanity bruise beneath my skin.

Obsessive thought of what could've been.

I’ve try to forgive but can't forget.

Everything is so hard, if not that's how it'll get.

I wish for a way to change my wrongs.

Regrets that has build up though life all along.

I wish to be forgiven and to forget,

all the wrongs that I have ever met.

To be happy and free among the living,

without those memories lurking..

Everything feels like a dream,

how can all these things be what it seems.

All I ever wanted was to have my fantasies be,

but now all has become nightmares, that’s what I see.

I don't have anywhere to hide,

where can I go to escape all these lies.

I don't know but I wish I knew though.

tell me please where can I go.

there's nothing left for me to do, everything is said and done.

It aches me at the site of u.

It flusters me to think of u.

Are u happy now?

I make me want to scream, just yell out loud.

Fall to my knees and sink through the ground.

Now that I have lost and u have won,

I'm better off to say that the prise wasn't all that fun.